September 7th 2006 04:19
Thinking about my sporadic foray into the gambling world makes me think I may have it all wrong. Could it be that as a result of wanting to drink I started to gamble. Playing a poker machine does after all legitimise a woman drinking on her own during the day. For example, if I wanted a drink and didn't gamble how suss would I look sitting on my own in a club? Very. But. If I have a drink while I'm playing a machine then I don't look so much like a target. Then again, if I'm at home and I have a drink I still feel like a want to gamble so that sort of destroys my theory. But for the past two days I haven't drunk or gambled. So perhaps I can redeem myself. Perhaps I'm simply bored. And if I had full-time work things would change? Or maybe I'd just put more money in the machines. The main thing this week is to stay off the machines. And do what Phil suggested and decrease my credit card limit. I'm going to do this now.
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